Shelly James

You’re a bully and you make me the butt of your jokes to make everyone else laugh. So called...

Thu, 13 Sep 2012 18:08:18 -0400

You’re a bully and you make me the butt of your jokes to make everyone else laugh. So called friends mean nothing these days.

I’m actually so upset right now. I am no closer to finding out whats wrong with me, yet...

Wed, 09 May 2012 08:26:58 -0400

I’m actually so upset right now. I am no closer to finding out whats wrong with me, yet another test has come back with no results and i’m still stuck here in pain not knowing what to do. I’ve been like this for around a month now and its fucking up everything.. i’m missing college, driving lessons and its even affecting work. I just want to be better. So a doctors appointment on Friday to find out what new tests i now have to take and a blood test :(

Trying to hold in how much of a prick I think you are. As to why I’m writing this on here and...

Sun, 06 May 2012 13:38:43 -0400

Trying to hold in how much of a prick I think you are. As to why I’m writing this on here and not twitter.

I don’t want to be in pain anymore :( its fucking everything up.

Sat, 21 Apr 2012 17:45:30 -0400

I don’t want to be in pain anymore :( its fucking everything up.

So like my worst nightmare came true, after writing that post the other day now it’s all...

Mon, 16 Apr 2012 11:31:22 -0400

So like my worst nightmare came true, after writing that post the other day now it’s all seeming to come true. Spent all of last night in a&e after having really bad abdominal pains..had to have another stupid blood test from my hand. Turns out my tablets have affected my kidneys and that is most likely the cause of my pain..I have to have another blood test Wednesday which means 3 in a week when I fucking hate them! And got a hospital appointment Wednesday too..really hope this all gets sorted :(

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Thu, 12 Apr 2012 17:01:21 -0400

I don’t think some people actually understand what im doing to myself. I know its not their...

Thu, 12 Apr 2012 16:59:12 -0400

I don’t think some people actually understand what im doing to myself. I know its not their fault because this is my problem, but this could actually maybe make my life hell in the future. This medication is prone to cause Kidney and Liver failure yet i still seem to take it. Its completely helped me and i couldnt be happier with the outcome, but after having all these little problems and thinking they were nothing to now find out that they are in fact a side effect scares me a little. When i say to people im feeling unwell and they still try to get me to do stuff its like no seriously im not well. I don’t want to stop taking these but im scared if i do what the outcome may be. Im having blood tests every month now (which i HATE) and hospital appointments all the time, which im getting rather sick of. Im suffering from side effects as i type this and im sick of having them while im working because no one actually understands how much pain they can put me in, people just think i can push through it but i don’t know how much longer i can be this strong. I struggle through work every weekend after being in pain after an hour of being there and having another 7 to go. I don’t even know why im typing this here. Just needed to put it somewhere i guess.

Its weird thinking about that, i’ve seen an advert thats made me think. I honestly don’t...

Sun, 11 Mar 2012 20:06:06 -0400

Its weird thinking about that, i’ve seen an advert thats made me think. I honestly don’t know a single person i’m comfortable talking to about it, its nothing person against anyone its just hard and strange. It still disgusts me. The line that was on the advert was exactly what someone said to me. Scary.

Watch please!

Tue, 06 Mar 2012 18:36:19 -0500

Watch please!

The fact that you think of me as your ‘booty call’ (thank you Stan) is disgusting. You...

Fri, 20 Jan 2012 05:56:07 -0500

The fact that you think of me as your ‘booty call’ (thank you Stan) is disgusting. You know i wont fuck you so why fucking ring me all the time at early hours of the morning asking to see me.

So since the beginning of this year (realising its only the 15th of jan) I’ve had a cold, a...

Sun, 15 Jan 2012 18:30:11 -0500

So since the beginning of this year (realising its only the 15th of jan) I’ve had a cold, a cough and another cold. Stupid fucked up medication.

Zante Zante Zante Zante Zante. Needs to get booked.

Wed, 11 Jan 2012 16:50:19 -0500

Zante Zante Zante Zante Zante. Needs to get booked.

If I make a commitment I’ll follow through, I hate people with no spines.

Wed, 11 Jan 2012 14:56:28 -0500

If I make a commitment I’ll follow through, I hate people with no spines.

Are you kidding me? All this hard work I’ve put in and it could be worth nothing? Fuck you...

Tue, 10 Jan 2012 11:40:11 -0500

Are you kidding me? All this hard work I’ve put in and it could be worth nothing? Fuck you all.

You’re such idiots. It’s not this hard seriously. Yes or no.

Mon, 09 Jan 2012 15:29:05 -0500

You’re such idiots. It’s not this hard seriously. Yes or no.

Why bitch to my girls like I’m not gonna find out, pathetic..

Sun, 08 Jan 2012 12:49:47 -0500

Why bitch to my girls like I’m not gonna find out, pathetic..

I hardly write on here anymore, just felt like i needed to vent shit. I don’t trust anyone any...

Tue, 03 Jan 2012 18:31:06 -0500

I hardly write on here anymore, just felt like i needed to vent shit.

I don’t trust anyone any more, like i literally don’t know who i can talk to. Everyone bitches and is spiteful. People are just plain rude. People just don’t seem to care any more, it’s just all about them.

I wish it was how it was when we were younger and nothing really mattered.

I hate that i feel paranoid around the people i care about most, its just not right.

I wanna move. Like really far away where i don’t know anybody and can start new.

Plus, this medication is horrible. I feel like shit all the time, it hasnt even started working yet, i keep getting burning in my fingertips and its just painful.

I might ignore everyone for like 2 weeks, turn my phone off.. just be by myself for once.

Why always no? Why so many insecurities? Why so many indirects?

Wed, 21 Dec 2011 18:05:53 -0500

Oh go away, why ask me this on anon. You’re a dickhead!

Ignore my face and room. But i miss when my legs used to look...

Sat, 08 Oct 2011 16:04:18 -0400

Ignore my face and room. But i miss when my legs used to look this good!!

Love love love this photoooo

Sat, 08 Oct 2011 15:55:28 -0400

Love love love this photoooo